I'm back..

 

Ah, this feels like a really big step in the right direction, I am back! I took some time away from blogging the last few weeks as I felt after my last post I needed to get my sh*t together! I spent hours debating about whether or not to post it but I'm so glad I did.

So how am I feeling now? Well the last 3/4 weeks have been full of ups and downs and mixed emotions but I have found strength I never knew I had. Other single mums who have been or are in a similar situation kept telling me one day you will wake up and you will just be stronger person but I couldn't see the light at the end of the tunnel, I didn't ever see things getting easier but my gosh they have! Each and every day I find myself picking up the pieces bit by bit and feeling a little bit stronger the more time goes on. Having Isla a majority of the week apart from when she sees her dad has been exhausting and some days I feel like shutting myself in the bathroom and crying with her but it doesn't last for long and I shake it off and realise that Isla is my strength. Its amazing how a little person who cant even talk to you can make you feel so much better and see things in a different light.

As they say as one door closes another one opens and the other week I received some really exciting news and I had to keep it quiet for a little while but I am so happy to announce that I have been given the privilege to work with Channel Mum (Eek somebody pinch me) as one of their  new talent sponsored vloggers. Throughout the next year the wonderful Channel Mum team will be giving 100 mums the chance to be sponsored by them offering expert advice and support,£200 a month, a Panasonic video camera and other exciting things to get there You Tube channels of the ground! Channel mum founded by Siobhan Freegard OBE also previously founded the UK’s biggest parenting website, Netmums (WOW) Channel mum is 'The honest face of parenting' and I feel so excited and blessed to have been selected for such an exciting opportunity! I have received my camera and I have also just got a new HP laptop so my plan is to get filming this week so watch this space for my introduction video!

All in all the last month has been a bit of a whirlwind but I have been living life by one of my favourite quotes 'Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, its about learning to dance in the rain' which is exactly what i'm trying to do. I have so many ideas for blog posts and vlogs on the transition from being a couple to being a single parent but I also don't want to stray away from why I started doing this blog, to capture the precious moments with Isla.  I'm hoping to go back to posting twice a week on here and then a video once a week on my You Tube channel! I will share the link for that when its up and running!